Dear Memory Loss Pt2

Dear Memory Loss,

You’ve knocked me out and knocked me down,

You’ve made me cry and made me frown.

You’ve bruised my face and made me cry,

I don’t want sympathy I just want to ask – why?


Why is it me you feel to attack?

Because there’s only so long that I can fight back.

I may have a small army of family and friends,

But they also wonder just when will this end.


It’s been over a year that you’ve filled me with fear,

Can we not change this now, maybe switch down a gear?

The doctors tried to help but they  have no idea,

I haven’t given up yet but I am extremely near.


I want to wave the white flag, surrender it all,

There’s no light in this tunnel, it’s just a brick wall.


Q & A

I’ve been struggling with what to post lately.

So, I’ve decided to do another Q&A blog.

I invited people to ask me anything! Whether that be about my black outs and memory loss or something A little more personal.


  • Have they found out what causes the blackouts?

Sadly not. It’s been over a year now and I’m still no closer to having any answers. They have ruled out plenty of things that they are sure it’s not but I’m still really frustrated to not know what it is and whether it’s something I’ll have to put up with for the rest of my life. Quite depressing really as it affects so much of my day-to-day life.

  • How did you meet your partner?

Haha! I’m sure you all remember MSN from back in the day, right? Well we first started talking on there through mutual friends. We followed each other on Bebo and MySpace LOL and finally met about 8 years ago at a friends birthday party. We were together about 4 years ago but things didn’t work out. Then we came back into each others lives almost 2 years ago. Sadly, I don’t remember 2 years ago but it’s safe to say that I was over the moon when I first came round after losing 2 years of memory to find out that we were together again. She really is like my guardian angel and has helped tremendously with my health.

  • If you won the lottery, what would be your first purchase?

A house! I’d buy me and my partner our very own house together. A dream home, but not too big because I wouldn’t want like 6 bedrooms to tidy! It would have to have a pool though! And a double garage ready for me to purchase my dream car which is currently a Range Rover Evogue.

  • Is there anything you want to achieve but are scared to go and try?

Hmm that’s a tough one. I’m sure there are plenty things but you’ve put me on the spot now! … I’d love to go skydiving and things like that but I’m terrified of heights lol. I’d also love to drop everything that gets in the way and go start a full time career in music. But music doesn’t pay the bills these days unless you’re signed so I’m scared to drop things like my job as I could end up with no money and no career!

  • If they found a cause for all of this and it stopped, how would you feel?

Wow, that’s something I haven’t really thought about. Mainly because I seem to have it in my head that it will never be sorted. But, it’s become part of my life now. Quite a lot of things have had to change and I’ve had to adapt some parts of my lifestyle to be able to cope. But if one day it all got sorted and I no longer blacked out or lost my memory I think I’d feel so free! Maybe also a little weird and empty because it can take up quite a lot of my time and change a lot of my plans at the moment. But it makes me smile to think that it MAY one day be over. No more black outs, no more memory loss, no more depending on others quite so much, being me again.

  • What are your biggest fears?

Death! It scares the sh*t out of me to even think about it. And dying in a fire or by drowning are what I think would be the worst ways to go! Losing loved ones is also a huge fear of mine. I don’t have many people that I have love for or keep close so that small circle of mine means a whole lot to me. And a recent fear is. . . Losing a huge block of memory again, I’m not sure how/if I’d be able to cope again.

  • Which mobile phone apps do you use to help the counter effects of memory loss?

I use an app called ‘FamCal’ it’s a joint calendar that my partner and I use. It has become extremely helpful for both of us. It’s very easy to use and you can make to-do lists, shopping lists and just use it as a normal calendar. It’s an app that I would recommend to not just people that struggle with remembering things but also for busy families that have a hectic lifestyle with a lot of dates to remember.

  • What’s your favourite food?

Hmm, I’m not overly experimental with my foods but I do have a meal that I could eat at any time of the day no matter what – Quorn chicken nuggets with mash potato in a Yorkshire pudding, covered if gravy! Also, we all know I’m a HUGE crisp fan, any type, any flavour!

  • Your dream vacation and why?

It’s got to be Jamaica! I’m half Jamaican so it would be great to see my roots. It also looks like a beautiful place to visit all year round. I haven’t been yet though as it’s just so expensive. I did ask to go there for my 18th birthday but understandably, momma bear couldn’t afford to take me, my lil sis and herself so instead we went to the next island over – Dominican Republic and it was amaze balls!

Thanks for reading and apologies this one is short and sweet but I hope to have a few more blogs up soon so don’t forget about me just yet!





Sunshine Blogger Award

Hey hey im baaaack!

I have been nominated by the lovely Dollie Daydream. Please do check her blog out, she’s an amazing blogger and her page is lush!
So, ‘The Rules’

  • Thank the person at nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  • Answer the 11 questions your nominator has given you.
  • Nominate 11 other people and give them 11 new questions to answer.
  • List the rules and display the award.

My 11 Questions

1) If you could be any animal for a day what would it be and why?

I think i’d probably be some type of bird like, not a pigeon or anything as they are just rats with wings! I’d want to be maybe a vulture or even a magpie. They can fly around so freely, look down at the world and see so much and also… I’d sh*t on a lot of people’s heads!

2) If you could name a planet what would you call it and what would it be like?

I’d name it ‘Heaven’, it would be where you went when you had passed away. It would be just how I imagine heaven to be –  Beautiful, warm, fluffy, everyone gets along and the whole planet was at peace. To get on to the planet it would be like travelling to another country – You’d have to take identification and you could only stay there for a certain amount of time to visit your loved ones that had passed.

3) When you have had a stressful day what is the first thing you do when you get home?

As I work shifts and the times I get home are different then my methods can vary. If I’m on an early shift I get home between 14:00 and 14:30. If im stressed out then I’ll put the kettle on, find some crap TV like maybe Jeremy Kyle and I’ll sit and watch that (Always a few people on there that will make you feel better about your own life!) and I’ll wait for my other half to come home to cheer me up which is something she is extremely good at from the minute she walks through the door and smiles at me! If im on a late shift which finishes between 22:30 and 23:00 and it’s been stressful then I tend to get straight in to bed, take a deep breath, and offload to the other half who is an extremely good listener! Then have a spoon and go to sleep, reminding myself that tomorrow is another day and it will be better than today!

4) Name one thing you love about yourself and why?

I love that I can get along with so many different people. No matter their race, age, size, sex, religion, looks, sexuality, or opinions. I always try my best to not judge straight away and give people a chance. This means I have such a variety of people who I know and talk to either face to face or via social media (mainly social media because I’m not as shy behind a computer screen!). Being able to do this has got me so far in life!

5) What do you think is important in a friend?

TRUST! It’s important in anything but especially in all types of relationships. I need to be able to trust my friends and I hope that all my friends feel they can trust me. And a sense of humour is a big thing for me. Like, if we can’t giggle and you don’t get my sense of humour then it’s going to be quite challenging for us to be able to get along as friends. Girl Code! – Also a biggie. My female friends must be able to stick to the girl codes! I’m not sure if i was supposed to stick to one answer for this question… Ooops!

6) Do you live your life with certain morals or rules because of your upbringing? Why are they important to you?

Wow, this is quite a tought one as I think I have a fair few but the main morals and rules I have been brought up with are to be honest and to be open-minded. My mum, nana and grampa taught me that. I was sometimes painfully honest. At school if I did something wrong then I would always tell my mum as soon as I could. That way, she could stick up for me and she would always be understanding. If I did something that got me into trouble, there was always a reason behind it. Being open minded, my mum is the best at this especially when I told her about my sexuality. She was brought up in a different era and was taught differently but she always tries her best to understand me and my ways. These are just 2 morals that I live by and they are important to me because they have helped make me the person I am today.

7) If you were given a trolley and told you had 5 minutes to grab your favourites from your local supermarket and keep them for free, what would be your top 5 go to’s?

  1. CRISPS! Anyone that knows me, knows about my crisp obsession. Any crisps any flavour!
  2. Quorn. It’s so expensive so I’d deffo pick some up for free!
  3. Painkillers. I go through paracetamol and ibuprofen as boost for my other painkillers like their going out of fashion!
  4. Sound system. I’d deffo pick myself up a decent sound system for the TV for when I’ve got Youtube on!
  5.  Tampons! let’s be honest ladies, they should be soo much cheaper than they are so who wouldn’t grab some for free!?

8) If you could take up ANY new hobby what would it be and why?

This is a real tough one! There are soo many hobbies and I feel like I already do my fave hobbies. But I think it would probably be football tbh. Mainly because my other half is obsessed with football, she watches it, plays it, used to work in football and I’d love to be able to understand more about it to take even more of an interest in it for her and also to be able to play it so I could have a kick about with her and not look like such a fool when doing so lol.

9) If you could have one thing for breakfast tomorrow and it could be ANY combination or anything what would you choose?

It’s obvious really… A bloody huge bowl of crisps!! Enough said.

10) Ebooks or physical books?

I haven’t even been reading books for very long tbh but I definitely prefer physical books. I enjoy holding a proper book, feeling how many pages I’ve read and how many I have left to read. But, I’ve never really read an ebook.

11) What do you link yourself with more a mermaid or a unicorn?

100% unicorn. I’m terrified of open water so I couldn’t be a mermaid even if I wanted to! My mum is obsessed with unicorns and either says that she owns one or that she is one and a unicorn couldnt give birth to a mermaid! And also because unicorns sh*t rainbows!!

11 questions I’d like my nominated bloggers to answer:

  1. What made you think ‘I want to start blogging’?
  2. You wake up one day and you’re told you can do ANYTHING you want within the next 24hours?
  3. If you were stuck on an abandoned island, what celebrity would you want to be stuck with?
  4. What was your dream job as a child?
  5. Would you rather have a night out on the town or a cosy night in?
  6. Sweet or savoury? And what is your fave sweet or savoury snack?
  7. What’s your favourite thing about yourself?
  8. What’s the best compliment you’ve received?
  9. If you could wake up in the body of ANYONE else, who would it be and why?
  10. If you could be any age for the day what would it be and why?
  11. What was your favourite lesson at school and why?

I would like to nominate:













    A Bucket List For May

    So, I really enjoyed doing a Bucket List for last month and thought I’d do another one for May

    • Ride a bike in Amsterdam.
    • Celebrate my ‘Remember Day’ (The day I lost my 2 years of memory) lol.
    • Go watch the Womens FA Cup Final at Wembley.
    • Attend Birmingham Pride.
    • Go to a Vape Expedition.
    • Start reading a new book.
    • Go for a long evening stroll when the weather is nice.
    • Have a date night.
    • Go Jet Skiing.
    • Write at least 2 new blog posts.
    • See the parents in-law.
    • Go 2 weeks black out free!
    • Get back into Slimming World.


    You open you’re eyes, it’s a Sunday morning. You’re just about to roll over to give your other half a snuggle but they aren’t there. They are in the bathroom brushing their teeth. ‘What are you doing up already?’ You ask, it’s Sunday neither of us have to be up until about 10am and it’s only 07:30.

    I’m getting ready for work’ They reply, looking just as confused as you at this point. ‘Babe, it’s Sunday you have football today not work’ I remind her. ‘No Daniella it’s Wednesday, I have work and the car needs to go for it’s MOT this morning, have you passed out during the night?’ She asks.

    Thoughts start rushing through my head. I’m sure it’s Sunday, I can’t have missed that many days, I don’t even remember passing out, what am I supposed to be doing today? What time should I be in work? Am I already late? Oh no I’m going to get sacked! 

    ‘Do you remember what my dad did to his leg yesterday?’ my partner quizzes me to find out if I passed out. I shake my head, I have no idea what happened yesterday if yesterday wasn’t Saturday!

    Just as I thought the gaps between my black outs were getting bigger and it was happening less. Spoke too soon didn’t I! 

    I’m starting to get upset. I’m frustrated with myself, I’m frustrated with the fact that in my head it’s Sunday so now I have to adapt myself and check everything to assure myself that I’m wrong, that it’s Wednesday. I start to sob. Sometimes it becomes all too much and all too worrying for me. Sometimes I’ve just got to let it out. Now it’s time to take some painkillers, forget about what I planned on doing before work today because that’s gone down the drain, ffs, another morning wasted. I guess I’ll just lay here in bed, hope that the painkillers take the edge off before I need to get ready for work. I can’t call in sick again, I can’t let my colleagues down again, I can’t put my job at risk. 

    I’m trying to relax, empty my mind for just an hour or two so that I can nap and try to refresh myself. 

    Imagine, this happens at least once a week. Maybe once every other week if I’m lucky. I become physically and mentally drained from constantly having to check what day it is and questioning myself as to whether I’m right or wrong. Whether that day out I was really looking forward to has already been and gone and I just can’t remember it. Having to look back at the pictures we took, seeing myself there but not having a single memory about it. Whether I had plans with a friend and now I have to be a let down. If I close my eyes will it all be over? Will I know exactly what day it is? What I should be doing without having to go all through my phone and double check everything with my partner?

    I’d love to be able to feel a bit more independent because I can remember, know what day it is, where I am, And what I’m supposed to be doing….



    Dear Memory Loss

    I will not let you defeat me, I am much stronger than you.

    I will not let you define me, I am more than this one issue.

    I wont allow you to make me cry, no matter how much I don’t understand why,

    I wont allow you into my nightmares, you will not ruin anymore of my nights.

    You cannot stop me from socialising, that’s for my anxiety to do,

    You cannot stop me from getting out of bed, I refuse to stay here with you.

    I will tell the world about you, I will give you plenty of fame,

    I will tell you it’s not because I am proud, It’s because you have no name.

    No one knows or understands what you are,

    No one knows or understands the mental scar.

    You’ve stolen from me, two years of my life,

    You’ve stolen from me, that’s not fair nor right.

    I’m lucky, and I’m much better than you,

    I’m lucky, I have more support than you do.

    I’ve had my life rocked and tipped upside down, all from what you’ve done,

    I’ve had my life pushed right to the edge, and my feelings made so numb.

    I will now stand proud, with my middle finger raised,

    As a salute to the unwanted, extremely forgetful days.


    Spa Day – Whittlebury Hall


    So, for Momma Bears birthday which was on 28th March I knew she wanted a Spa treatment so I decided to book us in to Whittlebury Hall for a ‘Mother & Daughter Pamper Sesh’

    She picked me up at 8am and we drove down to Whittlebury, booked ourselves in with a very prim and proper young lady at reception with not a hair on her head out-of-place, and got our towels and robes and changed into our bikini’s. 

    We were called for our first treatment at 10am which was a back, neck and shoulder massage in a double room. It was one of the most relaxing experiences I’ve ever had! The oils smelt amazing and the soft music was so soothing. It was a half hour massage but I would’ve laid there for the rest of the day tbh, I was so gutted when it was over! But both me and mum found out that we have tickly spots in the same place on our back but on opposite sides LOL. So, sadly, the massage came to an end.

    We decided to take a look in the relaxation room which looked really relaxing with dimmed lights, beds and soft music but at a closer examination it wasn’t so good. The beds were basically just sun loungers and rock hard. There were pictures on the walls and magazines…. The room was almost pitch black…. And my mum made a good point – Unless the magazines are in braille there’s no point in having them in here lol! We didn’t stay in the relaxation room long before we decided to see what else we could try out. We went downstairs in to the big jacuzzi and chilled in the pool for a few minutes then went and checked out the ‘Crystal Sauna’.

    I’m not a huge fan of swimming pools. I always get an awful feeling that something is on the bottom of the floor that’s going to get me but I pushed myself and lowered myself in… Not for long though! The crystal sauna was great but we could only hack it for about 10mins before we had to step out and breathe! Then I decided I’d be brave ant try the “Ice Experience”. It was basically a room with a load of ice in a dip in the wall which you rub over your body and then there was 2 showers with cold water… Really bloody cold! It’s safe to say I didn’t really enjoy it too much haha!

    We then tried another type of sauna and while I was sitting there I could help but think ‘Im sat in a room full of other peoples sweat! All over the bench, the puddles on the floor… ewwww’! When we came out of there mum thought she would be brave and try the bucket shower which was a cubicle with a bucket above your head and a chain. Obviously I opted to pull the chain which resulted in mum being drenched in freezing cold water! I loved it… Her… Not so much haha!

    After we had taken advantage of all the saunas and jacuzzi we went upstairs where mum read some of her book and i went on my tablet. We ordered our afternoon tea at about 13:45 which I must say I wasn’t looking forward to that much as it’s mainly sweet things and I’m more of a savoury kinda girl! But when it arrived it had cucumber and cream cheese sandwiches which I demolished and I also tried the scones which cream and jam were actually really nice! Mum ate the salmon (which stunk!) and the pudding type bits which I doubt she wasn’t gutted about getting all the sweet treats to herself! 

    We got called through for our pedicure and mum wasn’t too impressed with the way hers we’re done which didn’t help the fact that she had just paid a fortune for it! The colour was wong and the woman had to restart multiple times and then she rubbed half of the polish off mums big toe and she put her flip-flop on for her! On the other side of the room though I was loving my pedicure! Apart from the part when she caught a really tickly point and I almost kicked her in the face and off her stool… How embarrassing!! 

    So, all in all, it was a lush day. Very relaxing with a few giggles with my momma bear as a late birthday present for her and I will definitely be returning… Regularly!


    Life Lately

    I’ve been struggling lately on what sort of blog posts to do. I started this as a way to raise awareness about my memory loss & blackouts so I try my best to stick to the subject in all posts which can make it difficult to blog if i haven’t blacked out much! So I thought I’d give an update on the past couple of weeks.

    So, life recently has been pretty average tbh.

    As you’ll know if you read one of my recent posts – ’10 Days Black Out Free’, I was on a roll with not passing out. I went something like 12 days black out free in the end which is easily a record because it was getting to a point where I was blacking out on average at least once a week so the 12 day streak of being black out free came as a surpise! I got so excited but at the same time tried not to get my hopes up too much as I knew that a black out would be just around the corner. And it was! Boo!

    I worked my 10 days of early shifts and it actually went better than I thought. I was overly careful and took painkillers when I needed them instead of trying to be big boll*x and soldier on without them. I went to Thorpe Park with a group of friends and it was an amazing day. The sun was shining, I was with my other half and some great friends, we laughed til our tummies hurt and made as much noise as possible on every rollercoaster!


    After that weekend when my partner and I came home, we were both clearly tired and I just knew that a black out was on it’s way! I passed out on the Sunday and Monday but can’t really remember them ones. And I also passed out the Tuesday. My partner went off to work as usual and because she had the car with her she thought she would come home on her break to surprise me but clearly I had my own surprise for her! She came in and found me passed out on the bed. I had completely forgotten the weekend at Thorpe Park and I was gutted. I felt really low and agitated and I was supposed to go in to work to cover a shift that day but my partner had to call and inform them that I wouldn’t be able to.

    I think I’ve pretty much caught up with most of my memory now and I’ve been back to work.

    I’ve also finished reading the book that was suggested to me by the last Dr I saw at the JR. It’s called ‘It’s All In Your Head’. I was very dubious about reading this book for obvious reasons. But never the less, I’ve read it. I’m still not sure what I think about it but I have learnt a few things from it. I’m not sure if I will do a review on the book exactly but I may do a blog post on some of the things that I did learn from it.

    My partner and I also went to watch ‘Mrs Browns Boys’ live and if you are a fan of the programme then I would definitely suggest going to see it live! We went over to Birmingham early on the train as the sun was out so we visited a few beer gardens and sat catching some rays!

     The show started at 19:30 I spent pretty much the whole 3 hours of it laughing! I love it when they mess lines up or make each other laugh and just play off it and carry on like it was supposed to happen, it’s great, it really adds to the funny side of it. The only thing was that we forgot to check what time the last train back from Birmingham was and it’s safe to say that we were going to miss it if we wanted to stay and watch the whole show! BUT, luckily, my lil sis was also in Birmingham at a gig and my mum had driven her there and was taking her home so, once again, momma bear came to the rescue and we got a lift home!

    So, all in all, I’ve had a pretty decent couple of weeks. The weather has been nice to us, I blacked out less than usual, visited friends, went to a theme park, and went to see a live show! And if you read ‘A Bucket List For April’ you will see that this means I completed a fair few things on it already! Hehe.

    Thank Your for reading and I hope your last couple of weeks were as good, if not better, than mine 🙂


    The Liebster Award

    First of all, thanks scribblecity for nominating me.

    I’ve never been nominated to do anything like this before so i’m quite excited to be taking part!

    If you’re nominated the rules are:

    • Post 11 facts about yourself
    • Answer the 11 questions asked by the person who nominated you
    • Nominate 11 other bloggers
    • Ask those bloggers 11 questions
    • Let the bloggers know that you have nominated them

    Here we go…

    11 Facts About Myself

    I have recently done a post called 40 Facts About Me so I am going to duplicate a couple (sorry)

    1. I’m 6ft3 – Which is very tall for a female! I don’t really like it because I stick out like a sore thumb and it’s such a pain in the ar*e to find womens trousers that are long enough! I end up spending a fortune which i don’t think is fair, I didn’t ask to be this tall! Lol.
    2. I suffer from black outs and memory loss – Dr’s can’t seem to find a reason for it which is becoming extremely frustrating. I’ve lost the past 2 years of my life which I am slowly getting used to but every time I pass out I tend to lose the past couple of days although they do slowly come back over the following days. But I would really just love an explination for it.
    3. I am absolutely terrified of moths and butterflies! – I’ve found other people that are also scared of moths but they still think butterflies are pretty. HOW!? They are basically just moths with make-up on! Don’t be fooled by them! When I say I’m petrified that’s literally no exaggeration – I sweat and almost have a break down if I even see a picture of a moth or butterfly so I’m sure you can imagine what I’m like if I actually cross paths with one!
    4. I came out about being bi-sexual when I was about 18/19 – I remember I wrote a letter for my mum explainging it, I dropped it on her lap and ran back to my room quickly because I was sh*t scared of what the outcome would be! My mum is the most open minded and understanding person ever but I was still soo worried about telling her about my sexuality. She came along to my room, we had a chat and she comforted me then we made a few jokes about it lol!
    5. I am dyslexic – It’s no biggie these days, so many people are told they have dyslexia and there’s so many ways around it now that technology has moved forward. But, I wasn’t diagnosed with it at school, it wasnt picked up on until I was 16 and started college. I went through primary and secondary school just assuming I was thick and teachers assumed I just wasnt listening because I wasnt picking things up like my classmates. I remember feeling so relieved once it got picked up at college. I finally had answers and I wasnt just thick! It was such a good feeling, I was actually happy to be told I was dyslexic because that meant there was a reason for me struggling so much!
    6. I’m obsessed with crisps – Well, any carb really, but I LOVE crisps! Any flavour, any make, ANY crisps! You can keep all the chocolate and cakes as long as I get the crisps. And please don’t expect me to share my crisps because that would be like asking me for a limb! I can eat a share bag in like under 10mins and I’m not even ashamed haha!
    7. The sound of a hairdyer or hoover can help me sleep – Ok so this may sound weird to so many of you but even Wayne Rooney has his hoover on sometimes to help him sleep! I don’t go that far, what a waste of electricity, but I suppose he can afford it! I just have an app on my phone that plays out the sounds of hoovers, hairdyrers, washing machines, lawn mowers and so on. Aparently these sounds are all similar to the sound we hear in our mothers wombe which can be very relaxing for babies… I have no explination as to why it still comforts me…. Awks.
    8. I used to play Softball for Great Britain – When I was playing softball in my teens I really didn’t understand how playing for GB was such a huge accomplishment. I was so humble about it when I’d tell people and they would be like “OMG that’s soo cool!”. But now im older and can appreciate it i’m like damn, yeah, that’s a big thing! Me and my 2 best friends were like the 3 amigos. We were like joint at the hip and that didn’t change at softball either. We travelled to some great places with our GB team and we were so gutted when it got taken out of the olympics!
    9. I prefer dogs to people –  Come on… Who wouldn’t!? They don’t argue back, they are so loyal, cute, they know when something is wrong, always up for a cuddle, protect you no matter what, always happy to see you, yes you have to pick up their poop but I’ve also had a lot of human friends sh*t on me too… Just not in the same sense!
    10. I didn’t even understand what a blog was until a few months ago –  With my black outs and memory loss I can really struggle. Yes I have so much support around me from my fammily and close friends but I still feel so lonely as I am yet to find someone going through the same thing. So I want to raise awareness for my condition. The idea of a blog was suggested… I’d come across the word before but didn’t have a clue what it really was and after doing some research I thought WHY NOT! I still learn every day from other bloggers and I’m far from being a pro but I love it and I’ve taught so many people about my condition and found people that have similar problems all thanks to starting a blog!
    11. I’m an extremely strong believer in ‘Everything Happens For A Reason’. I believe that our lifes have already been written out, everything happens for a reason and we are always on the path that we should be on in life even when we are struggling… There’s a reason for it!

    11 Questions I Have Been Nominated To Answer

    1. What is 1 thing that has changed your life, and how/why?

    My job – It’s changed my life for the better, it’s made me mature, given me a better outlook on life, given me another chance and been very supportive through what’s been happening with my health lately and made my bank healthier!

    2. What 5 words best describe you?

    Tall, caring, humble, anxious, forgetful..

    3. What’s the scariest thing you have ever done?

    Performed with BabyD in front of 50,000 people in Liverpool.

    4. If you could give the younger you 1 piece of advice, what would it be?

    Not everyone is going to like you or agree with you so just do you and the right people will love you.

    5. What is your dream job and why?

    Probably to be a DJ mainly a radio DJ on a channel like 1xtra. I love playing music that puts others in a good mood and gets them moving.

    6. How do you pick yourself up on a down day?

    Sometimes reading some inspirational quotes on Instagram helps. But usually chatting to my other half or mum gets my ar*e into gear!

    7. What experience is at the top of your bucket list?

    My life bucket list probably has ‘Own my own house’ at the top of it.

    8. Who inspires you and why?

    My mum. She’s such a strong, independent woman that has fought through so much in her life and come out the other end even stronger! If I can be even half the woman my mother is then I’d be happy with that.

    9. What do you love the most about your friends?

    They are full of banter and rarely struggle to make me smile but can also be serious when needed.

    10. What made you start your blog?

    I want to raise awareness for my un-named condition and maybe find others in similar situations and help and share coping mechanisms with them.

    11. Which TV/film/book character do you most relate to and why?

    DORY! I think it’s pretty self explanitory! Shes forgetful like me and has memory loss like me!
    Thank you @scribbleincity for nominating me. I’ve had great fun writing this up! I did try not going on too much lol!

    I am nominating:




    Nicole Francesca

    John Sennett



    Discount Style Guru

    Lydia Wilkins



    Questions I Would Like You To Answer:

    1. Why did you start blogging?
    2. Who inspires you, not just in the blogging world but in life?
    3. What social media app do you find you use the most for your blogging?
    4. One thing you are most scared of in life?
    5. Do you prefer a night in with friends or a night out on the town?
    6. What topics do you blog about most and why?
    7. Do you find the blogging community supportive? 
    8. If you were an animal, what would it be and why?
    9. What is your favourite genre of music?
    10. What’s the bravest thing you’ve done in the past week or so?
    11. Do you prefer savoury or sweet treats?


    A Bucket List For April

    I’ve never done a bucket list before so thought I’d give it a go 😊 

    • Go to watch Mr’s Browns Boys live.
    • Go to Thorpe Park.
    • Spring clean the flat.
    • Go to Amsterdam.
    • Start reading a new book.
    • Make home made pizza.
    • Go for a spa day.
    • Have a date night.
    • Write 3 blog posts.
    • Have a movie night.
    • Write another poem.
    • Get the car professionally cleaned.
    • Finish writing at least one song.
    • Meet up with the bestie for a coffee.
    • Have a self pamper night.